Email excerpts from the new online guy (Mike)
I'll put brief portions from email #1 to current...he has a certain charm about things and makes me smile more than I care to admit to...
you seem like an actual, non-synthetic human being. or am i wrong? (this was the first email from Mike)
music is incredibly important to me as well, so much so i very rarely if ever listen to the "mainstream" radio- to me MOST studio stuff (nothing personal) is way over-produced, when you polish something a lot of the energy and emotion and "realness" is lost- and to me that's what music is. when you take it and polish it it's more like entertainment to me. if you can get to where your fingers or hands or whatever are good enough to channel what you are feeling in your brainstem (or whatever), then you've got my attention.
a couple more questions, and please feel free to babble, have you traveled much? do you have/want children? do you own a telescope? i could go on but anyway. enjoy
how's everything? isn't this weather freakin' glorious? full moon, warm, then thunderstorms late at night (around here at least), god it makes living through the winter all worth it!
what do you think the current state of the planet is? are you optimistic about our future? i'd really like to know. and finally if you're not offended by this question, how old are you?
the only thing that really makes me nervous is how short sighted people are. and about your story, i don't know but when i'm talking to a woman who interests me i'm never inclined to be a leering pig, but i'm sure i'm more ethereal than most. you should have done a "granny" and hit him with your purse- which hopefully contained a horseshoe. (This was after I told him about a guy at a bar that said to me that he liked talking to me because I have big breasts)
i know i promised to get back to you sooner and i'm sorry, the weather has just been so nice i've had no desire to spend the little free time i've had lately inside staring at a computer screen, i'm sure you can empathize! damn it's nice when it goes right from winter to almost summer! i love these couple weeks every year when all the leaves and plants and some of the flowers are emerging, i'm kind of embarassed to say that but it's absolutely true!
i find your "musical attitude" so interesting and refreshing! one thing that has always annoyed me about many musicians i have met is their need for fame, and when that becomes the main goal instead of createing something beautiful i usually cannot work with them- i'm much more interested in producing rhythmic and emotional sound waves than any kind of fleeting stardom or payoff. the two seem almost mutually exclusive to me.
i like to make up my own words, like one i thought is fitting for most middle to upper class americans: pompacity
i always find things in everyday life amusing, i guess i just like to laugh or am generally a happy person- some people seem to take offense to that for some reason.
i don't know if there is 1 perfect woman for me, everyone is unique and i'm interested in someone who has different perspectives and who will always make me think and challenge my own beliefs. someone i can learn from and they from me, is generally happy and likes to laugh and have fun, loves music, has respect for the universe and has no need for devisive attitudes. i have been starting to think that might not be impossible and hope i am wrong.
your last email was a great comfort to me and i thank you very much for it and am truly sorry it took so long to tell you that- i've just been in an very introverted (and busy) mood.
hopefully the automotive industry will finally be forced to offer more affordable hybrids, that would be like a dream come true for me!
i love watching storms too! this has been a great weather pattern we've been in lately- except for those totally clear days which have been too hot like yesterday. a good cloudy, warm day with a chance of thunderstorms is like heaven to me- it makes me think living in the tropics wouldn't be so bad as long as it rained almost everyday to cool things off. i used to follow bigger ones when i had more time, at least i've been able to watch them on the way home and listen to them while i'm laying in bed if nothing else. it was funny the other day, my male cat went out the door in the morning when it stopped raining and a minute later there was a huge, scary, close clap of thunder and he jumped back in less than a second later!
i just wish we both had more time, maybe we could out to dinner or something? i know it sounds stupid and myopic but my schedule should be free-ing up after labor day so maybe we could get together and do something then if you have the time? i would like that a lot, like i said earlier i'm always thinking of things i'd like to ask you but just never have time to unfortunately for now.
you...are beautiful in so many ways. i know i don't know you enough to say that but i really have the feeling i'm right. it's almost like i could have written those same emails to you - i do understand exactly what you are saying and feeling. i too feel much the same and very much appreciate each one of your emails and that letter you sent was just awesome to find in my mail box, thank you! now i'm just really praying you don't think 37 is too old!
you do know me already, i guess i have been able to parlay my repect for the universe pretty well, or maybe your psychic?
i'm so tired right now and trying to cover everything i want to say and i'm sure i'm not doing a very good job, but i'll talk to you again soon. i do very much appreciate all your emails and that letter really knocked me out, i can't say it enough. if you still want to get together it doesn't matter to me what we do or where we go at all, and i do understand you will be very busy during your show so i was thinking of wearing some kind of disguise so you wouldn't feel nervous or that you needed to talk to me- i'd just really love to see all your work. anyway, hope all is well and enjoy this beautiful weather we're supposed to have this week--- (this was in regards to my art show...the disguise part)
i'm so, so sorry, so much has happened in the last couple weeks it's impossible to explain it all but just know i didn't and haven't stopped thinking about you in any way.
i really do not believe you when you say you don't recall any man telling you that you are beautiful- that seems completely impossible! but if it is true it only means the men you have been with must be blind, it is so obvious to me. and i know what you are saying about our lives being meant to cross- it seems like something that is meant to be on some level and i feel very lucky that you contacted me, so no, you're not crazy but i am for leaving you hanging for so long- just know i never wanted that to happen at all. (After an unusually long time between emails...)
even though we haven't actually met i do know i care very much about you and can't wait for the next couple weeks to be over so i will finally have time again and maybe then if you can and still want to we will finally meet- anywhere, anytime. it is totally up to you, i am happy just to have had this and any connection with you and i want you to do whatever you want, i hope you understand what i am trying to say. take care---
you don't know how nice it makes me feel to know i brighten your day, as you do mine everytime i receive something from you, even when i think back to what you have said. it gives me such an incredible feeling to know you think of me everyday and my thoughts can bring you happiness and i, too, am so happy that we have been able to be there for each other the last 5 months- you are just so supportive and nurturing and real. it is strange to know someone this way without ever having met, but i could tell from your letter on monday that you weren't feeling all that well, so don't ever worry that you are being misunderstood- i'm very content just to be any part of your day. you write so beautifully and if you mean even half of what you say i think i'm the luckiest guy alive just to be exchanging letters with you this way and making us both feel the way we do, the thought of actually meeting is almost too much, i'd hate to lose what we already have.